Along the way I’ve asked myself quite a couple of times why I had to choose photography. At the beginning my parents would ask me why too, thinking I was only passionate about it because everybody else had a camera. I had to fight that pain along with other hardships that come along with being an artist. Incompetence, insecurity and uncertainty, and then there was the constant struggle of having to prove myself to everybody when all I really wanted to do was shoot out of sheer love for the art.
Early on this year, I had dropped out of a photography course yet again and for over a month all I did was shoot client work and prepare for jumpstarting my freelancing career. I felt burnt out and all I really wanted by then was to create photographs of my own, for myself and nobody else.
It was the first time I was meeting Amalie on the drizzly Saturday afternoon of our shoot. Once we settled, Aria and I just look at the rawness of Amalie’s beauty, wondering what we’ll be doing for her hair and make-up. I had brought only two sets of clothes for styling and had no story in my head but somehow, as all my unplanned shoots are, things fall into place. After all the prepping and filling our stomachs with lots of nachos and cheese, we leave and drive around a village in the south, looking for beautiful spots we could possibly shoot in. When I spotted a giant oak sitting on the center of a lot I pulled over and stared. In my head I started envisioning all that could be, all the possibilities of beautiful photographs dancing around in quick glimpses. It was perfect. Soonest I started pressing the shutter, electricity shot through me and inside I felt my heart leap with joy. Right there and then I knew the answer.
This is why I take photographs. And this is why I will never stop.
Art direction, photography & fashion styling by yours truly
Hair and make-up styling by Aria Ortega
Modeling by Amalie Stray